Intricate

I try to write blog regularly, but fail miserably. It seems to me that I had written a blog just yesterday but in reality it would be day before yesterday.
Coming to the point, I have dedicated this blog in sharing some feelings that I have been feeling since quite a few days. And that is my incapability of understanding myself. I am not sure if everyone is so complex from inside like i am but i can say that I really am an intricate person. Even I can't understand myself, and I must admit that others won't be able to understand me either, atleast that's what I think. :)
Sometimes i just see someone, and I start disliking them for no particular reason, suddenly i just don't want to talk to them and don't even want to talk to them.
Sometimes i just want to bcum friends with some people, i just want to strike up a friendship with them.
when i think of it, there are some reasons in the background which makes me like or dislike some people but sometimes it's hard for me to pin point those reasons.

okay then
will continue with this later.
very sleepy now
take care
Allah Hafiz.

Still Worried

I have had a three day off from my university. and still i haven't been able to accomplish anything. it seems like i waste most of my day in chatting or watching tv and yes ofcourse sleeping. and worried as i am, i'm still not doing anything to get myself rid of it. infact, i am giving myself all the more reason to indulge myself in more worries.
If I start thinking about FYP, there is nothing that we have really done.
and it seems to me that I am not working as i should and i am not working as i used to.
May Allah help me. Ameen.

Worried Girl

These days I am worried about a lot of things.
With my last year of bachelors, there are a lot of tensions wandering over my head.
There are a lot of things to study, we only have 4 subjects what yaar we have fyp. and we chose to take such a hard project, that even we ourselves are not sure how we'll do it. May Allah help us Ameen.
Then the 4 subjects are not that easy too.
plus as we are graduating there are things that i should know, softwares i should have exceled by now but as it turns out there are a lot of softwares i don't even know the name of excelling them is another story altogether.
i am not even capable enough of writing a simple document in xml.
doesn't seem that i am doing my bachelors in computer science.
so many depressing thoughts about yourself.
how can you live with it?????

And after a long time I am here to write again. To be truthful, I don't exactly have anything to write about. The reason may be that I have only just begun blogging.
Blog reading is an enjoyful hobby no doubt. You get to know a lot of things, you get to read good stuff, but I am not tooooooo sure about blog writing.

Before this, I was, actually I still am the member of a forum. I joined that forum because I was learning VB.Net (I haven't learnt it completely till now) and wanted to ask questions. So I only started a topic there when I wanted to ask something. Now this is something totally different. So that's why, here I am writing things that don't really make any sense. :)

And Pakistan Lost..... :(

Yesterday, I waited the entire day to watch the match against Pakistan and India. The final of World Twenty20. All day long the only thought that captured my mind was this game, the only thing we talked about at the university was this match.
At 5 the match started...... it was no doubt a very good and interesting match,, but then again most of Pak India matches are. atleast for us Pakistanis they are. All we really care about is Pakistan winning against India, no matter what. Even if Pakistan looses every single match against each and every team, but they manage to win against India, for us that would be more than enough, if they win against India, it would be the same as winning the World Cup.
But yesterday Pakistan lost by 5 runs. 5 runs only yaar. The match was so good. At one point, it seemed like Pakistan would loose. But I am a kind of person who is pessimistic about everything else but when it comes to Pakistan cricket, I'll be saying Pakistan would win this match even if it's obvious that from this point they could only loose. And so it was yesterday too. I kept on watching the game (after all they only had to play 20 overs), and Misbah-ul-Haq, the soul of yesterday's match, took the match to a point where only 5 runs were needed from 30 balls, and then he played that dreaded shot and was caught, and that was the end of it all. Pakistan lost.
But we are not that depressed about yesterday's game, after all it was a good match. Pakistan put up a good fight, and that's what important. :) :)